Entry: From the inside out Sunday, December 03, 2006
It's late actually. Woke up this morning n told myself that i shud get some good rest tonite, n i had a chance to sleep early..say like wat? just b4 midnite,...and then...
I can't sleep. Laid on the bed and my eyes were just widely opened. Maybe something really was bothering me..or was it something else? *shrug* Don't reali know.
I stared in the dark sky for a lil while longer than usual..my mind blank. What was i thinking? Wat was i feeling? Wat was it exactly that was in my hand that i felt that i was loosing grip? Or that i was holding too tight? My purpose, my existence? Did i go bac to wher i had been? Did i lost part of me? Or that some truth of me was making a greater significance?
....it's time for another of some self-reflection. U know, like some medical check-up u do from time to time when u pass a certain age. Heh..something like that. When was the last check-up i had? Hmmm....months ago i suppose. So let's see..wat is it this time?
Missing something, missing someone, missing some people.
and?
Like this piece of puzzle that is still tryin to find the right edge to fit the groove of another.
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A thousand times I've failed Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again I'm caught in Your grace Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else My purpose remains The art of losing myself In bringing You praise Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul Lord I give You control Consume me from the inside out Lord let justice and praise Become my embrace To love you from the inside out
Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame And the cry of my heart Is to bring You praise From the inside out Lord my soul cries out
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Think i will jsut need to go sleep now...it's 2am...need to wake up early sumor...ah well.
God, i still need You very much..to do the things that i wanna do for You. I know i am not perfect, n because of that, all the more i need You. Consume me from the inside out, let justice justice and praise, become my embrace to love you from the inside out.