For a long time, weeks, the atmosphere within these four walls were just so, so tight, so so tensed. So tensed that you could almost feel it within your bones. As though they were goin to break if you squeeze it a little bit more. You heard your friends talk about it, discussed, loathed, complained and just so fed-up about the whole situation. Then you picked up other opinions, other perceptions and in the end, you just didn't know how to feel or where to stand anymore.
Some will just tell you to stay away, to not bother, to not get yourself involved..of which i am tryin to do; but still, i couldn't help it that it ate a little of my peace away each time I listened to all these. I mean, each time...ok, correction, not each time, but most of the time when we gather round and talked, the amount of negativities could be really overwhelming. Just like today..*sigHHhh*..
Right after lunch,..my mood went down like a ball rolling so quickly and CERTANLY that it was gonna gain such momentum that you probably will not be able to catch it back running after it. Even I couldn't catch up with my mood changed till someone asked me how come i was so moody and right after lunch. How enjoyable was lunch?! And to top it off, i didn't eat. Tummy din feel alrite, so skipped lunch. *sighs again*
And then my mood after,...*scoffs*..well...im pretty much still like that. Just dunno why...actually i shouldn't be like this. Cause the first thing, it didn't evn have anything to do with me. And that was another problem..not my problem and i was getting it like so much...n my own stuff?!?!..*roll eyes*...feel like smacking my own head. STOP!!!!! *big sighhhHHhhh*...
*take a deep breath*...
...life still goes on...come on, bring in the clouds. The darker the better!! ( as how my fren put it..)